For you

Most of you expect another stupid post containing nonsense and nonsense word by word.
I don't care about you Horsts and Horstinas!!
If this posting's for you read it, if it's not I'll ask you to ignore it and not to write any nonsense comment.

Many things have happened during the last days. The interesting thing about it? They were either extremely sad and shocking or extremely good and satisfying (I thank God for those!). Sometimes I don't understand why things are the way the are - like most people do.
The only thing I can do then is going on hoping and trusting there's a reason and a sense in it and that someday I'll understand why. It's not always easy... I admit it's never.

Some of you readers might understand what I mean, some might say 'In my life things've always been perfect' (Great for your rockshow, dude!). For those who do: There's nothing in the whole wide world that might seperate you from the great love of God. And this God I'm writing about has got a plan for you and your life. And he knows exactly what's wrong. He knows your mood, your soul... he knows the hours you sing while having a shower, he knows the times when you'd like to smash the table on the wall, he even notices your walk to the toilet (and the things that happen then...).
I always try to remember this: If I take the wings of the morning and dwell in the uttermost parts of the sea, even there His hand shall lead me and His right hand shall hold me.
I chose this verse for my baptism because it has always helped me to get through. Even in times when I had been longing for seeing heaven. I could never flee from God and his love... he's always been there to hold me and to lead me through life.

I don't want to say you're gonna be over it soon neither I want to say hypocritically 'I'm sorry'... for noone can really know what it's like. I only want to say, there's one who in fact does know what it's like and this One is here, right here.
It's up to you now.