Good evening, my love!
I WANT SNOW!!!
Sorry, seems like I couldn't control myself completely... but whatever?!
This morning I started one of this big 'tidy-up-your-childish-dreams-actions'...
You might ask yourself why it is called 'childish-dreams...'
I'm sure you know it: always when you tidy up your wardrobes, your desks, your armoires and so on, there are some things (some clothes, some school books, some diaries) you're just not able to recycle or give away. So you keep those certain things and a few months/years later when you tidy up again you find them and you recognize you're still not able to.
In my desk today (you know, my desk has maaaany drawers) I found some articles, some fan-stuff and which I bemoan most: brochures of an exchanging program.
Things that once were important to me.
Especially those brochures: Hardly one year ago I was sure I wanted to go to England for one year, leave here... and I was so certain that I would once make this become true, you know.
But as time went by I left that 'dream' and... you may say: I lost it or I forgot it.
Now I couldn't even imagine leaving all this here - not even for one year. Not now.
Emigrating is a discussion-topic itself. Don't get me wrong, I can imagine emigrating - in a few years (if -at least- my husband follows) ;-), but leaving, going alone to another country for 12 months... (over the sea!!) gush, I can't anymore...
But I suppose this dream was just a dream...
I mean, it was something, I knew I'd only have wanted to do, if things here had got worse. Instead of suicide I would have chosen leaving for one year... you understand what I mean?
Don't worry, I was and I am not weary of life - no way!!
It was just an example to make you understand why I call this dream dream and not vision.
So all in all, I've tried to make you understand why I called it 'childish-dreams...'
1. dreams, because these things keep being dreams.
2. childish, because I've changed my mind.
... Wow, I'm proud, such a long posting.
But now I'd like to know, am I the only girl/human being in the whole wide world that keeps things, I just can't give away, because of 'whatever'?
Have you got certain things?
Have a nice evening!
Yours,
Chrissy
1 comment:
Hi du Süße, mir gehts da immer genauso! Ich hab auch so nen paar Sachen (obwohl ich glaub seit dem letzten Mal richtig aufräumen sinds nur noch, mmm wenige.... 2...-..3 Dinge glaub ich). Und weißt du was?? ich bin voll froh, dass du nicht nach England gegangen bist! Echt jetzt ich hätte nicht gewusst, was ich mit meinen Mittwochabenden gemacht hätte und wahrscheinlich hätte ich täglich mit Eva telefonieren müssen um alles wichtige was ich grad so erleb zu erzählen. (So verteilt es sich auf euch beide-ich glauib des ist für euch erträglicher ;-) ).
Hdl
Ps: wie siehts morgen mal mit Gassi gehen aus? Hdl Miri
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